Growing for enjoyment
Last weekend Mr lovely and I set about trying to tidy up our little patch of outdoor space. Neither of us are particularly green-fingered but our garden desperately needed some TLC.
I loved it. I loved planning what we want to do with the space. I loved potting my little plants and I am loving checking on them daily to see if they need water. It gives me a sense of peace and of purpose. I can now say I completely understand the appeal of gardening – it has given me something to focus on that isn't related to work or my business, a sort of escape.
It got me thinking – I can’t remember the last time I really had a hobby. It sounds crazy as I have tried my hand at all sorts of things over the years. I have studied archaeology and law, taken evening classes in ancient history, foreign languages and photography. I have trained to teach English as a foreign language and learnt to snowboard. I have danced, flower arranged and played the drums. But I have never continued with any of these things.
Because my need for perfection has got the better of me.
If I haven't been able to do something at a professional level I have abandoned it. The bottom line is that I am not very good at doing things just for fun. I feel guilty. I should be doing something else – working on my business or learning skills to further my career, not sewing or writing poetry.
The problem with this is that I am not allow myself to be truly creative or to expand. All of my creativity is used in trying to improve my career and business but in reality those things would grow at a greater rate if I allowed myself some real time off.
I am gradually shifting my perspective around this - my yoga practice is helping and my new(ish) found love of baking bread is too. I have decided that I am going to make more time (even if only for a few hours a month) to try new things for fun or pick up old hobbies.
How about you? How do you make time for yourself outside of work/business?