You may have noticed it's been a bit quiet around here as I have been adjusting to the changes going on. Well trying to at least.
I have learnt a lot about myself over the last 3 weeks - some things good, some things surprising. When I made the decision to accept the a new job it was because I wanted to learn, to push myself and grow. This opportunity would allow me to develop added skills, contacts and experience which would help propel my business and "soul work" forward. What I didn't account for was how difficult I would find the transition.
I have found it hard to work to someone else's clock again.
I have found it hard to balance work, study, home, relationship, kids, home time.
I have found it hard to manage the expectations of somebody else.
I have found it hard. Full stop.
I know that this is a good thing and that it is preparing me for the work I am meant to do but going from being my own boss to working for someone else is more challenging than I expected.
What I like however is being out - working with new people, contributing to meetings and getting out from behind my computer screen. I had forgotten how important those things can be for me. I can feel my confidence growing every day.
The lesson is that whilst we should be concentrating on the here and now as much as we can, sometimes we need to plan ahead. Sometimes that means we must do whatever we have to work around blockages and achieve what we are meant to.
Sometimes that means doing the hard or uncomfortable stuff but we should let ourselves feel that, to feel is to be alive.
PS - I fully intend to spend far more time here and resume with weekly love notes!